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Surprise

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 20:56:51 GMT

It's been a long time.... a long time.... since Ive posted.... which is weird since I used to post every day...

I miss it.... I really do...

I wanted to share something with all of yall that are still reading.... you are still reading, right?

I have a new blog.... and its got some big news on it....

www.blessedimpatience.blogspot.com

Hope to see you there.... and please share this with whomever you think might like to know.... :)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 20:08:33 GMT

Anyone still out there?

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 20:28:19 GMT

I wanted to thank everyone for the comments and emails.... they did cheer me up

I dont know why the only time I feel like writing is when Im down.... never when Im 'little miss sunshine' or whatever... ok, very rarely am I little miss sunshine (although you should watch that movie!) - but that seems to be what people automatically think of me when we meet - I have no idea why.... other than Im "cute".....

I probably had something really profound that I wanted to put in here, but as always my mind has drawn a blank.... hopefully Ill think of it soon.... ugh, gotta hate that.... but I do have to say that for all my complaining.... I am so desperately blessed that most days I cant stand it.....

i love you all

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 21:52:32 GMT

I miss being able to blog every day.... even if no one reads it...

First off, I want to thank everyone who remembered my birthday.... the emails and messages were the highlight of my otherwise boring day.... Daniel had to work and the kids were at school.... you know, I didnt even think anyone would bother with it, so it was nice to check my email and read all the niceness...

I, as always, was in a funk on my birthday..... I never talk bad about Daniel on here b/c I love him so much, but it would have been nice to be able to blow out a candle and be sung "happy birthday" to.... he did make me chocolate cupcakes, so at least I got that.... such is life, I guess.... (and while Im whining).... did you know that Ive only ever had one birthday party in my whole life.... I always find it depressing that everyone wants to celebrate that day, but no one wants to celebrate my birthday..... again, such is life....

Since my birthday, and the new year began, i have my ups and downs.... this week, especially yesterday, has been down.... a 2 year old girl that I have been praying for that has cancer.... she passed away on Saturday.... and I found out yesterday, that an old boyfriend from high school passed away on Sunday - the funeral is this Saturday.... he was only 32.... he just got married last year...

Im full of mixed emotions....

and when Im in a funk, I get down on myself.... why is that?

I wonder why people dont like me - Im nice, Im fun.... but it seems no one notices.... I want to be one of those people that everyone loves and pines over..... but it seems that besides my height (that everyone loves to point out!), I am utterly forgetable..... not someone you want to keep in touch with.... not the first person you think to tell your good news to.... or even get consolation from for your bad news

if I faded into the darkness would anyone even notice

you know, I really dont know why Im whining.... if it were in my power, I would become a hermit and never speak to anyone..... ok, not totally true - I would be a full-time photographer and interact with all my clients and be cute and smiley and wonderful..... and then I would come home and never go out.... until my next session....

its true.... if I won/inheritied/gained/whatever a large sum of money, I would: quit my job, become a full-time photographer, and otherwise, sit at home all day....

hmmmm.... maybe that is why people dont like me.... Im boring....

Im 30.....

I feel like an adult, and yet, I feel like people still look at me like a child....

I wish I could be taken seriously....

Seriously....

If anyone reading this (which would be no one, Im guessing - Im boring remember)..... and you feel guilty b/c you didnt remember my birthday.... then I desperately, desperately want this.... http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?ref=sr_gallery_3&listing_id=11687536 ... but I cant justify the cost to Daniel..... or myself really..... its so gorgeous, but I feel bad spending money on myself when there are so many other ways that my money can be doing good for someone else....

Maybe that is why people dont like me.... I dont even value myself....

of course, thats not really true.... I am a selfish, selfish person....

Evidenced by this random, whiny blog entry that serves no real purpose other than just letting me whine....

whine, whine, whine....

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 20:55:50 GMT

Well, I finally went and did it..... www.talleyimages.com is finally up and going....

Id love to hear your thoughts and opinions.... whats good, whats bad.... what needs changing.... which pictures do not look good on your computer?

Id love to hear whatever, but please email me so I can actually see it.... :) You can email me at talleyimages@yahoo.com

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas/holiday and the new year brings you nothing but joy.... dont forget to eat some black-eyed peas!

Too Good To Be True

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 21:06:13 GMT

yep.... xanga has since been re-blocked at work.... so here I am sitting at the library - typing to all you lovely people who commented.... woo hoo - that made my day...

a few highlights before I forget them....

Tuesday, Daniel and I took off to go do our Christmas shopping.... normally, I am on top of things and do not wait until the week before Christmas to go buy presents, but lets just say its been a busy year.... anyway, we went and got everything and I had a wonderful time just spending the day with Daniel..... at the end of the day, we ran into walmart to get something, and when we got up to the cashier, she looked at me and said "so what is that, like leftover halloween hair?" Daniel quickly snapped back that it was my every day hair color.... she turned white and didnt talk to us the rest of the time.... we had a good laugh in the car.... why would you say that to someone?

And my poor boy is convinced that it is going to snow for Christmas.... although I keep telling him that we dont get snow.... it is amazing to see that "child-like faith" in action.... we were riding in the car the other day and he said "mama, Christmas means its Jesus' birthday and that its going to snow".... what am I supposed to say to that?

Daniel has finished school for this semester.... finally got the exams out of the way, and no more night classes for us.... woo hoo... he willl graduate from EMCC in May and then start the W as a full time student in the fall..... along with Gabe starting public kindergarten in the fall.... how I wish Gabe was more like his daddy for things like this - Daniel thrives in new situations with new people.... its pretty much going to kill Gabe and I dont look forward to that first day - although, I know, he will eventually get the hang of it, he is unimaginably smart, but I still dread that first day...

Emma is de-bunking the myth that girls are easier to potty-train....

Oh, oh, before I forget..... if you are in Tuscaloosa and want a magical setting for a date, then you must go to the Iguana Grill - its in the shopping complex with Barnes and Noble.... on the backside.... its a Mexican place and is very reasonably priced.... but the atmosphere - wow, it is absolutely the most magical place I have ever been - I just sat and looked at everything.... If only I would have had my camera..... you must, must go....

ok, I think you are caught up on the lives of us for now.... hope you enjoyed!

And I hope everyone has a most wondrous holiday and rest of the year!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 15:15:21 GMT

Well, theyve unblocked this site at work again.... and not knowing fully how long its going to last, I figured Id better take advantage while its here..... not even sure anyone is still reading (why would you?), but oh well...

Im not even sure what to write as I there has been so much that has happened since I last blogged, but then there has been so much that hasnt happened...

So.....

I guess I will just write what I have on my mind right now, and catch up with the rest later....

Christmas.... its inescapable.... When it comes to Christmas, I tend to go in cycles.... one year, I cant stand it b/c of all the commercialism and people missing the real point of it all, and the next year, I will be so in love with it b/c it is all about love..... last year, I was the former - just in an ill mood the entire time.... and this year, well, Im in the latter....

I cant remember a Christmas that I have been more thankful..... not just for what Im getting, but more for what I already have...

I have been convicted on so many levels these past few months of how truly ungrateful and wasteful and selfish I am. It is amazing that one person can be so narcissistic.... so, I am slowly shedding layers upon layers of what the world has taught me - to look out for #1....

I am truly, truly grateful for all the blessings that I have been given, and have been trying my darndest to give back this season..... I want to be a new person. And ever so slowly - and I mean sssssssssssllllllllllllllllllllllooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I am starting to shed some of the material possessions that are cluttering up my life and my mentality..... I want to be free of "stuff" and moreso than that, I want to not teach my kids by my actions that "stuff" is important.... I want them to know that love and trust and helping others are what is important in life....

Is this a pointless post? Maybe.... but you know what? I dont care.... Im marking the beginning of this journey b/c this time next year, I want to see where I was and how far Ive come.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:26:23 GMT

Well, I cant say the new blog is going to happen....

We have had about 51 people layed off, a plant shut down and an office close.... in a little over a week.... so its probably not a good idea for me to be caught spending alot of time on the internet.... ugh....

A few things to catch you up on....

-Emma turned 2 on Nov 13..... and she is now sleeping in a big girl bed (ie: a twin mattress on the floor) - her room went from nursery to little girls' room in one day.... and I love it..... although I was a bit sad that my baby is no longer a baby anymore

- the picture business is going really well.... and I am pretty much booked for the rest of the year

- anyone else think Obama is the next JFK..... Ive been telling Daniel that for awhile now....

- where has Thanksgiving gone? As Americans, it is our one true holiday.... and we ignore it..... of course, the mass markets cant sell a holiday that says to "be happy with what you got".... so we like sheep, follow along.... makes me sad

I always think of a million things to write, but when I get here.... it seems like nothing wants to come out.... ugh

Until next time....

Monday, November 03, 2008

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:25:23 GMT

I am contemplating starting another blog.... If anyone wants to read, send me an email at talleyimages@yahoo.com so if I ever do get one up and running, I can let you know the new address....

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 19:43:42 GMT

well, they have finally done it.... at work, they have blocked all blogs - so I cant read/write/comment..... I was very pissed off and now am just sad, as I sit here at the public libary typing this.... ugh, so frustrating....

but not much I can do.... so blogging will be light until I can figure something out.....

if you need to get in touch, you can always reach me at talleyimages@yahoo.com